I feel so humbled and happy and excited about this movie!
I’m no actor, but I get to play myself in this short video about one small time in my life that is actually quite the huge turning point for me. It is when I came home from the hospital and was sad and depressed and didn’t know how to get my old life back now that I was in my new paralyzed body.
What I discovered was a not-so-secret trick that has helped (and continues to help…) me find purpose, reason, and love for my current circumstances – whatever they are!
Here are some behind-the-scenes shots of the filming of this video:
Filming the school shots with a fun bunch of ladies!
Makeup and hair by Ed. He does the makeup for many big screen movies and he also is over the makeup for all the General Authorities for General Conference! He kept touching up my makeup in between shots. He had to do some pale makeup to make me look tired…but I’m sure he didn’t have to do too much. And he was so fast with everything! Everyone needs an Ed.
They filmed this shot SO MANY TIMES but then used the angle that gives me an elephant chin. Grr. Oh well. I guess that’s a lot how it was for me back at this time of my life – unflattering! Brian is filming, Tyler is in the plaid, and Gerald has the sound backpack on, this is a rare time when Gerald wasn’t wearing headphones to listen to the audio. I know my voice is so light and maybe even sounds a little (okay, a LOT) forced, but that was really how I spoke back then! I really didn’t have the lung capacity to say things with a strong voice. I’d just gotten out of spending 3 straight months in the respiratory ICU and couldn’t speak loud (or even normal) without passing out.
My “mom,” Kristy, waiting in the wings to come help me eat eggs. A super fun side note is that the director, Scott Wilhite, chose what I should eat in this scene – eggs and orange juice – and that is EXACTLY what I ate for my very first food. I couldn’t eat for 3+ months while intubated in the respiratory ICU and then I couldn’t eat for a while in rehab either. But once I could, I got to choose anything I wanted and I chose eggs and orange juice.
This is Scott and Brian filming the eating scene. we had to do things so many times! and I forgot to take off my wedding ring before we filmed! I wasn’t married when this took place 🙂
The school scene again. You can see Scott referencing the script and Tyler clapping the clapper. Another fun coincidence is that when I volunteered at the school, I was with the students from Mrs. Smith’s second grade class. And I had to smile when the director, Scott, showed me the room where they were going to film me reading with the kids – it was (another) Mrs. Smith’s room!
I liked to film the ending scene where I was supposed to be giving a speech because that’s exactly what I got to do. Filming takes SO LONG and the director and sound guys and lighting guys all need to chat and film stuff from many different angles and it is quiet and boring for the people being filmed. So I just spoke as if I was giving a fun speech and kept the pretend audience entertained by turning them into a real audience!
Hi-Fives on the way out when we were done with this scene – I loved my wonderful pretend/real audience!
The filming took all day, literally from sun-up to sun-down and beyond. The people were so wonderful and I am so happy to have been a part of this so we can share it with the YouTube world…not so that this chapter of “my” story can be told, but so everyone else whose stories are turning the page into a new chapter of their own can know the secret that I’ve learned about life and changes and how, no matter what one is experiencing in life that makes it too hard for them to “stand,” they, too, can keep on rollin’!
((See the KSL article about this fun film here!))